The feeling deep within of knowing something no one else knows, namely, the roots and purpose of one’s own particular individuality and life. Shaken to the core by it!!! Spontaneous (“free”) improvisation can become one of the greatest means (not a renouncement, but a growth past) to shake oneself of all "conditioning" or habits - internally, expressively, artistically, publicly and privately. Into the furthest influenced reaches of consciousnesses. A bridge to expand awareness beyond the beyond, into forms beyond forms, through the arts to a state being where there are no longer distinctions (a “more” or “less” of anything), systems, techniques, clinging… No interferences of the mind or “outside.” True, personal immediacy, because that is it, and yet nothing at all. It is totally loose and invincible. At this time, one becomes a witness to these flowing things and the overwhelming beauty of its inevitability… August 25, 2007